The phone was ringing, disturbing my sleep. It was morning 6:30, the other day’s travel made me feel very tired.
“Hello… I am Aby here! Oh! It happened… what should we do? I knew that Aby is struggling within himself to open up and talk to me.
“What really happened Aby? Tell me, be frank”. He explained everything within one breath. When I heard it, my body seemed to be stationary… oh! I was unable… I couldn’t do that?
I had the guilt feeling, which was consuming me to that extreme where I felt that I have become nothing…
Sam is a young man known to me. He had a wealthy family; his parents loved him so much. He always gave priority to spiritual matters and led an exemplary life. He was a genius in his studies. I had met him during the last summer vacation. At that time he was waiting for his medical entrance result.
Since he was a brilliant student it was not a difficult thing for him to get an admission for medical science. He was given admission for medicine with a high merit. He had called me up before he left home for his college, “ Brother! Please do pray for me”. His conviction towards his Master drawn me closer and made me to have an intimate relationship with Him.
A beautiful campus!!! The youngsters who had lost themselves in the illusion of modern trends turned the campus into another world. They wanted to love and to be loved in vain. They were ready to let anything go to just enjoy life in momentary pleasures. Nights were just like days in the campus. Drinks, drugs and the magnetism of Internet totally mesmerized the future medical doctors and they tossed their lives for nothing.
Sam had almost lost his heart in pain at the piteous condition of his campus. He felt as if he were a little boy who was left alone in the forest on a stormy night. He tired to keep his soul and spirit at the feet of Jesus and wept in silence. He realized the great challenge of keeping his spiritual life. At night he recited all the scripture portions that he had learned during Sunday school days. The days were really painful, because he was rejected, mocked because of his faith…
As the days pass by… He tried to defend himself before his classmates who are addicted to alcohol and drugs. But slowly by slowly his feet started slipping at the boundary lines. The continued harassment and the compulsion of his friends set all his dreams and ambitions in whirlwind. At first very hesitatingly he began the drugs but later he could not pass a day without it. Sam was very late to recognize that his friend’s influence was leading him into downright destruction. His life becomes so worse, a stage where he could no more realize the beautiful colours of life, which God had destined for him.
He had almost lost his senses towards the real world; his beloved parents who had kept their whole trust in him were not even in his memories. When the money got finished he rushed to find another means, until the police in a burglary of theft caught him and his friends. His studies were affected; he could no more continue it. After being in the jail for a while he came back but his friends and society neglected him and he was isolated. He was filled with guilt feeling; with pain and all sort of harassment from others at his home he somehow pushed the days ahead. His parents did not know what was happening with their son. Even if they knew, Sam was not in a state to be brought back easily to the normal life.
This was the time that Aby called me to assure God’s everlasting love towards him and to comfort him. But I thought of going there some time later. Moreover, I was not able to believe all those things, which have happened with Sham.
By knowing the incident myself and Aby reached there, I was broken completely when I knew it is Sam’s dead body that is scattered into pieces on the railway track. Last week Aby called me but I could not go to Sam and see him and spend time with him.
Am I too late in realizing those tears, which were rolled out from his eyes, were so painful? Sam’s life brought a real challenge before me as I have received a commission from the Lord to share the love of Christ to the youngsters. Why am I wasn’t able to hear the outcry of his broken heart and his painful mind?
In the cheerful youth, the feathers of his life’s dreams were burned alive, when he could not realize that everything is vanity, he could not accept his rejection and decided to end his life… were I not able to realize that truth?
I was literally shivering. As I was standing as a silent witness by the railway track suddenly that verse started echoing, “If you do not say about this to him, I will ask his blood from you”! At His words my tears became rivers and started flooding everywhere. How much have I wished to bring back those moments!!! The Lord Almighty was making me I realize my great task as a partaker in His Kingdom. He reminded me that the price of a soul is soprecious than the whole universe. Yes, what great opportunity we have!